Leaving Jessie - The hardest thing I have ever done in life.

This trip to Sri Lanka has been very emotional for me. The month before I left Jessie had been in the hospital 4 times.  Our life is shifting. Jessie is 89 now. The day before I left she had to be moved to a nursing home with a memory care unit. I had no control over where she would be going or when she would be moved. I saw mom in her new location for about 15 min before I had to leave her an go to Sri Lanka. My first impression was good. I saw that the people who lived there were able to move around freely and the place was clean and the staff interacting with the folks were nice. 

I had to go.

I think this was the hardest thing I ever did in my life. 

A friend had said to me the mom always cries when the child goes to day care. 

That’s how I felt. I did a lot of praying. My Prayer was for me, and for Jessie. I prayed that Jehovah watch over her, Protect her and give me peace of mind.

The Holy Bible @ Philippians 4^th chapter verse 6 &7 reminds me “ Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving, let your petitions be made known to God; ⁷  and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your mental powers by means of Christ Jesus.”

THE PRAYER HELPED I FELT CALM.... WEEPY BUT CALM

Jessie's Bags International -The Tamil days

6/2018   

The Tamil days

This is the beginning of a new chapter in life. On my way to a new adventure that began a few years ago. While care giving for family I began to do something I wanted to do on sat afternoons I began learning Tamil, A Sothern Indian language spoken by friends.

And today I am packing to go to Sri Lanka a place where Tamil is 

spoken.

Excitement awaits at every turn… an adventure of a life time…

This is also all about me. No mom no aunts no husband. I won’t be alone I am going with a group but the choices and decisions the things I do will all be decided by me. This should be very interesting indeed. I am so use to considering someone else’s input before doing things this will be an adjustment…

1 day before I leave…

This journey will be a bit about self-discovery.

 I am going to Sri Lanka there I will find me Joanne.

Not Jessie’s Bags, Not Jessie’s daughter not Mikes wife.

This is an interesting perspective,  maybe my midlife crisis, maybe just because life is ever changing, shifting.